Primary Pattern

We learn to breathe at birth. Those who are present: doctors, nurses, parents and friends teach us how to breathe. Because birth is such a powerfully challenging event, bursting with emotional energy, the quality of our breathing lessons is critically important. We have passed through our first experience of stress, we have survived it and within the first hour of life we have established a fundamental relationship amongst energy, breath and feeling.

Under the best of circumstances, birth is an intensely traumatic event. We have spent nine months in a warm and watery heaven, only to be suddenly thrust into an alien world. The womb that held and nurtured us becomes out attacker. We are forced into a long, arduous and often terrifying labour, an absolute struggle for survival. Our bodies undergo extraordinary pain from wave after wave of crushing contraction. For our psyches, there is equal pain: we are being violently separated from all we have known.

In our adult lives, there is little we can compare to this primal ordeal. For most of us, it is the nearest we will ever come to dying until the actual moment of our death. It may be the greatest test of our lives, the most challenging set of circumstances we will ever encounter and the answer we find during such a test will naturally serve as our answer in all future tests. The lessons acquired at birth will become the foundations of our lifestyles and philosophies.

'As you grew up, people and events taught you to restrict the movement of your energy, the life within you. You are hedged in by energetic habits that you know nothing about and that decide what you think life is like. They limit how much life you can know, how much pleasure you can feel, how passionately you can respond. You can learn to have choices about what you're doing with your energy. This includes becoming aware of what your energetic habits are and developing the 'energetic muscles' to free yourself from those habits.'

Julie Henderson

Infants are obviously preverbal and physically undeveloped, but are beings of great mental and emotional faculties. We see, hear, touch, taste and smell; we form beliefs about the world based on our experiences; we develop attitudes and preferences; we learn to trust or not to trust, to fear and not fear, to love or not love. We are thoroughly aware of the world around us; we are positively and negatively affected by the unique qualities of our world and grow as unique human beings according to the nature of our experience.

Western science gives us a totally different understanding of birth. It is thought that the foetus and new born is somehow preconscious and therefore unaffected, in any lasting way, by circumstances of birth. Because an infant's brain is not yet fully developed, many scientists have reasoned that the human faculties of consciousness, emotion, memory, understanding and learning are likewise underdeveloped.

'For the baby (the manner of birth) makes an enormous difference. Whether we cut the umbilical cord immediately or not changes everything about the way respiration comes to the baby - even conditions the baby's taste to life. If the cord is severed as soon as the baby is born, this brutally deprives the brain of oxygen. The alarm system thus alerted, the baby's entire organism reacts. Respiration is thrown into gear as a response to aggression. Entering life what the baby meets is death and to escape this death it hurls itself into respiration. The act of breathing for the new born baby is a desperate last resort. Already the first conditioned reflex has been implanted, a reflex in which breathing and anguish will be associated forever. What a welcome into this world!'- Dr Frederick Leboyer

Recently, a body of research is beginning to substantiate what any mother already knows: that the new born is conscious, intelligent, responsive and impressionable. Indeed the new born is hyperconscious and has greater conscious awareness of the world in the first few hours of life. Over time they will then gradually develop unconscious mechanisms for screening out vast quantities of sensory input to which they are forever exposed. They do this to avoid sensory overload, as they are wide open, totally receptive and taking the whole world in through all of their senses.

The new born will suffer, as surely and meaningfully as any adult will suffer and they will respond to their suffering like an adult, with the best of their capabilities. They learn and grow from such painful and pleasurable events and their present responses will be influenced by past experiences and will go on to influence future behaviour. All new borns will at some point experience some bad, unpleasant and thoroughly unwanted events. But they have a limited range of responses to such events - they cannot run, fight, verbally reason or intelligibly complain, or move to effectively alter a situation. Faced with a painful event and unable to take effective action, they do the only thing they are able, they constrict their breathing and contract their energy away from the source of the pain. They pull themselves in physically, mentally, emotionally and energetically, disconnecting from the cause of their suffering withdrawing from the hurtful world.

When they fail to receive such nurturing, however, and the hurt is extremely traumatic and/or often repeated, they will retain the contracted energy as a part of their experience. This fixed contraction of energy will affect them on all levels as physical tension, mental neurosis and emotional dysfunction. It will become a vital piece of the definition of their personality. It will be a primary pattern though which they experience the world and organise their responses to future events. Einstein was once asked that if he could ask one question of someone that would reveal the most about them, what would that question be. His answer was "How did that person see the world?" By asking that they would reveal primary patterns.

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The preconscious state is also likened to the stage before one wakes in the morning, so called the 'middle layer', as it lies between sleep (unconscious state) and awake (conscious state). In this preconscious state it is said that rational thought and ego are still asleep, which allows the mind to go into a meditative trance. This decrease in brain wave activity, frees the mind of distractions and is often akin to the enlightened state when you can experience that lightening bulb moment where life seems to slot into place.

The hyperconscious state is also likened to the higher self, before separation from source can occur, and individualised consciousness takes hold. It is the all-seeing, all-knowing self which is capable of experiencing multiple realities. Sadly, in more recent times this term has been sullied with a more negative connotation, as if hyper-awareness were a bad thing; hyperconscious consumerism is a classic example implying the neurosis attached to shopping.

Habits of a Lifetime

When birth happens under the best of conditions, it will involve a measure of suffering, which will contribute to the psycho-physical development of the new person. It is the responsibility of the attending adults to ease the way for the birthing infant as much as possible, but providing an environment that emanates warmth, safety, support, nurturing and love. If this happened the new born's early lessons will be of monumental challenges, which were well met. The painful contractions give way to ecstatic release and of absolute presence of mother love. The baby will experience unconditional human and environmental support.

Such ideal conditions are rarely present, however. Most of us carry the unresolved pains of birth forward as we grow. Our culture has failed to recognise the connection between birth and human development and most of us are burdened with some painful primal memories.

Twentieth-century Western obstetrics 'techno-birthing' dictates a traumatic birth experience, which comes with its own load of burdens.

Having said this, it is not meant to question the integrity or the good intentions of those who practice western obstetrics. They have been quite successful in sparing the mother pain and keeping both the mother and infant physically alive. All of the procedures of techno-birthing have originated as legitimate reactions to life-threatening dangers that sometimes occur during birth. The problem is not that the technology of Western obstetrics is not necessarily bad, rather it is that in failing to recognise the psycho-spiritual dimensions of life, birth has been made excessively traumatic, with developmental consequences for the infant. One of the underlying assumptions of techno-birthing is that labour and birth are inherently dangerous. It is thought that from early in the pregnancy and on through the delivery, both mother and infant are at considerable risk.

The intervention of techno-birthing often begins at the beginning, rather than waiting for the infant/mother to initiate labour. Contractions may be induced through chemical means. Many babies are delivered according to doctor and hospital schedules. The foetus is continuously monitored in ways that are invasive and interfere with the mother's labour and should the foetus's vital signs in any way fall outside of statistical norms, it is assumed that things are going wrong and further interventions are undertaken.

The use of forceps, caesarean section and or anaesthetics are all fairly standard procedures of techno-birthing to help the woman deliver and each has its own often serious lasting side-effects for the infant. However, they make it out of the womb, they are generally delivered into a world of chaotic sensory assaults - bright lights, loud voices, cold temperatures, harsh surfaces, masked faces - the perfect environment for surgery, but inhuman greeting for one who has spent nine months in the womb.

There are other horrors that may be visited upon this tiny new person, such as the immediate separation for the new born from its mother. The one, which causes the most long-term damage, is the premature cutting of the umbilical cord. A lifetime of continuous breathing all begins with and is conditioned by the first breath out of the womb. It is a critical first step towards independence; to be able to breathe separately from the mother is to establish oneself, in the most fundamental of terms, as an autonomous being. Breathing for oneself is the first step towards truly living free.

The new born's brain must receive a steady supply of oxygen and the transition from breathing with the umbilical cord, to breathing with the lungs must be as smooth and uninterrupted as possible. Any deprivation during birth can have serious repercussions for the individual. Nature provides adequate protection during this pivotal transition; the umbilical cord will continue to pulse with oxygen throughout the labour and for several minutes after the infant is born. It will continue to function until the infant has had time to discover and slowly establish full breathing with the lungs. When the umbilical cord is no longer needed it will naturally stop functioning - the child in effect cuts their own cord. They will separate from mother when they are ready.

All that is required for this first breath to spontaneously occur is patience and trust. When the process is unnecessarily aborted, an extreme emergency can result for the infant. Suddenly, oxygen is cut off, life is acutely threatened and the infant has no innate capacity for responding to this event. They are moments from death and totally helpless. They naturally panic.

Birth, at this point, is indeed a serious medical emergency, calling for emergency procedures. The infant is grabbed by the heels, swung upside down and struck hard. Birth has been turned into a brutal torture and an initiation into violence. Learning to breathe has become the most traumatising event of a person's life. The terror of the moment is contained within that first breath. All of the infant's intensely contracted energy is contained within that first breath. All their profound emotional pain is contained within that first breath. The new born is so powerfully influenced with this experience that a lifetime of shallow breathing may likely follow. A deep cellular connection between stress and breath has been locked in to the new born's body as contracted breath, energy, the relevant data for the decisions, attitudes, patterns and beliefs out of which they will create their life.

'The moment you breathe deeply, more energy becomes available in your body. Where there is energy flow, there is motion. You can experience this motion in many different ways: as sensations like tingling, numbness or vibration, or as actual body movements that go with these emotions - like crying, laughing or striking out. So, therefore, if you are afraid to feel one of the most effective ways to keep yourself from feeling is to control your breathing.'

Bruno Hans Geba

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Psycho-physical awareness considers the development of the whole person. Exploring a baby's primal reflexes as it grows into an infant, taking into account both the growth in the physical body, as well as psychological growth of the mind; the integration of mind-body-soul cannot be underestimated, and is necessary to maintain a healthy state of equilibrium.

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For more information on the concept of techno-birthing, please refer to Sky, M (1990), Breathing: Expanding your power and energy' Bear & co: Vermont

Breath

We learn to breathe at birth, even as we are learning about stress, emotion and human relationships. This does not mean that we are completely determined by circumstances of birth, there will be continuing chain of new experiences, both joyous and traumatic, of new lessons, growth and development. Still, to some degree, everything that follows will be influenced and conditioned by the lessons of birth.

A traumatic birth followed by several days of uninterrupted mother love, will elicit a very different lesson than a traumatic birth followed by separation from the mother. Infants who are greeted with violence and then surrendered to the warm, soft bodies of their mothers may learn that life here has its ups and downs, along with good and not so good people. Infants who are greeted with violence and then left in a nursery containing other crying, screaming babies may find themselves wondering years later why they feel unsafe, so unwilling to trust and so incapable of intimacy.

Any event that infants dislike endangers the same fundamental response, energy contraction (breath suppression) away from the event. They do this initially to survive. With time and repetition they learn that contracting their breathing is also a successful strategy for eliminating unwanted feelings; by decreasing the intensity of the unpleasant emotions.

If an infant is struck they will instinctively withdraw from the violating hand, they will contract energetically from an unacceptable event, emotionally from the feelings of shame, anger and hate, and will unconsciously hold their breath as a way of retreating, becoming small and hiding inside. They will do all of this immediately and automatically because they have no other means of response.

If this pain is not resolved and they are not encouraged and assisted in fully releasing from contraction, they remain scarred by the event. Their nervous system will be imprinted with circumstances and with their reactions to those circumstances. They will carry the pain forward in the body as contracted energy, as emotional content, as conscious reflection and as a specific manner of shallow breathing.

Hopefully this is an extreme example and not many infants will experience the last scenario. But life will always provide unpleasant events, have moments of hurt, and contain the experience of pain. The challenge of birth, infancy, and early childhood is not that children be spared negative events, it is that they be taught to breathe and thus to fully resolve their pains, to release their contracted energies, to balance their emotions and to actively embrace life and all it offers.

If birth is indeed so formative, then what can we, the ageing 'misborn' do about it? In deeply understanding birth, it is important that we, the parents and midwives of a coming generation, give children a more humane and spiritually conscious beginning. It is not however necessary that we remember our own actual births or that we attempt to somehow deal with that experience as a past event.

Just as it is breath that specifically locks in the trauma of birth, so it is breath that can free us in this present moment. All of the contracted and unresolved patterns of our past are manifesting now, in present time and they can be touched, felt and transformed now in present time, through simple conscious connected breathing. It is the continuing habit of shallow and contracted breathing that sustains our continuing habits of negatively contracted energy.

(Rebirthing or Breathwork), 'Is not teaching a person how to breathe. It is the intuitive and gentle act of learning how to breathe from breath itself. It is connecting the inhale with the exhale in a relaxed intuitive rhythm until the inner breath, which is the spirit and source of breath itself, is merged with air, the outer breath.'

There are a few approaches to conscious breathing each of which will tend to have a specific technique and some unique effects. Most conscious breathing approaches are alike in that they stimulate an increase in quantity and flow of breath, therefore an increase of energy throughout the body and mind.

In conscious connected breathing, the increase in moving energy leads to a direct experience of any stuck and unmoving energy. The individual breather becomes aware of how he or she is most critically blocking the free movement of energy. The person feels it now, in present time. The present time awareness of a block can be unpleasant. It can hurt physically, emotionally and mentally. The individual directly experiences habits of the past and the capacity for change in the present moment. In conscious connected breathing even for a minute or so, a person increases the free movement of living energy throughout the many levels of self, which allows him or her to tangibly feel, in present time, specific patterns of contracted energy.

Conscious connected breathing is simple, gentle and very effective when dealing with suppressed emotions, past trauma, limiting patterns and helps integrate the lost parts of oneself, so that one is whole, alive, full of vitality, creativity, clarity and able to give and receive love. In conscious connected breathing one breathes in a continuous flow, without interruption or pause, for an extended period of time. The inhale leads directly to the exhale, without the breather stopping or holding the breath in and the exhale leads directly to another inhale, without any pause between breaths. The inhale and exhale are connected, flowing easily from one into the other, allowing for one continuous flow of breath.

On the inhalation the breath is drawn into the lungs with some force, the exhalation is just allowed to fall away. It is important to remember not to force the exhalation out as this would lead to a build up of tensions within the lungs and the body, therefore defeating the purpose altogether. Within just a few minutes of connected breathing, the breather may feel a warm tingling sensation in the hands, face or feet, which may spread throughout the body. Or the tingling may intensify, typically into a tight and sometimes painful tingling in the hands, legs and face. The breather may become light-headed, but because breathwork is conducted when one is lying down, there is no danger of falling over.

Emotion = Energy in motion

During the Breathwork session, the breather may remember his or her birth with extraordinary clarity, or may remember any number of early experiences, including prenatal life in the womb. These memories may come as visual images, or they may be apparent in actual movements and expressions of the breather's present time body. The breather will feel with great intensity any feelings that have been suppressed in the past, such as sadness, shame, anger, guilt, feelings of being out of control, feelings of vulnerability, feelings of helplessness, feelings of terror - such emotions come in like waves through the breather and it is of great importance that the breather continues to breath and release the suppressed emotion. The breather may also experience waves of pleasure, joy, deep relaxation, powerful insights, visions of deep mystical content, unforgettable spiritual rebirth. The breather may discover at the cellular level, essential connection between breath, emotion and energy.  For more information on emotions please click here. (link to bit on heavier emotions)

Pennie Quaile-Pearce’s path to Breath₄Life™ Breath Work

I had been practising Bodhisoul Breathwork^® for a number of years when I had an unforgettable experience, which brought me indescribable joy. My experience was a meeting with the head of my, now, spiritual path. It was during an Intensive Workshop run by Christina Thomas-Fraser (Founder of the Inner Light Institute). I was helping her as her logistic person as well as taking part in the workshop. That morning she asked whether I wanted to breathe along with the other participants in a group Bodhisoul Breathwork^® session. I really didn't feel I had any particular need to breathe, so I voiced that, but I was also open to doing a Bodhisoul Breathwork^® session, if she felt that she didn't need me to help facilitate.

When the session arrived, I laid down with the others to breathe. The Bodhisoul Breathwork^® session started and after what seemed a minute or two I felt a huge build up in energy within my body. Focusing on the third eye I became aware of a bright blue light - it engulfed me, pulsing, it then seemed like a tunnel formed in front of me. I felt a sucking sensation as I started to move into the tunnel following the light and then as suddenly as it began so it cleared and I sensed myself standing on the banks of a large river looking out across the water at an approaching sailboat. It looked like one of those boats that sail on the River Nile - an old-fashioned design with a tall white sail. There was a single figure standing in the bow of the boat. It was too far away for me to see who it was, but I felt wave upon wave of overwhelming love and excitement. I strained my eyes and could see the ochre robe of a master yogi, but who was it?

I had met the Head of the Hatha Yoga path at his ashram in Virginia a few years earlier, which had been a truly wonderful and moving experience in my life, I will always treasure those moments in his presence and felt drawn to his teachings and guidance of hoe to live a good and healthy life.

However I had read autobiography of a yogi written by Parmahansa Yogananda and was also very drawn to his teachings he was the head of the Self-Realisation Fellowship and the Kriya Yoga path. As the boat drew nearer and nearer I could make out the outline of the figure and the dark wavy hair being blown in the breeze. I felt as if my heart cracked open and expanded to twice the size of the room as I recognised Parmahansa Yogananda. My thoughts were "He has come, oh, thank God, he has come".

I felt myself running towards the river with tears of joy streaming down my cheeks to greet him. He came ashore greeting me as his beloved little one. As I looked into the depths of his loving eyes I could see the full sum of myself, I knew that this immense being was part of my home and he had come to guide my steps back there. He took me down to the river and bathed me with such gentleness and as he did so I felt as if all past negative events were now washed away and he was wrapping me in his love. Then we sat together on the bank of the river as he showed me my purpose on earth in this lifetime, he helped me see how this would serve the greatest good, that a group of like-minded would come together to work on this project together blending their energies and skills to produce the end results.

After sitting in fellowship for a while he went back to the boat and sailed away. He had promised to be always with me guiding and protecting me, and that at the end of this life he would come and get me. I was not alone and I knew now for the first time in this lifetime that I had a purpose and work that was my spiritual duty to try to complete and that I would not be left behind. As I watched the boat sailing away, the tears of joy, relief and overflowing love poured down my cheeks. He had come back for me and would be with me for eternity. I had found my spiritual path, my spiritual home - the thing I had been searching and searching for, for years and years. The void that had been with me, the emptiness, the discontent, had vanished in his smile and in its place was a bottomless pool of unconditional love that I could share with others, as well as myself. When I returned to the room and the session had finished, Christina took one look at my face and knew that I'd had an amazing experience that had changed my life.

I was filled with awe and a deep, deep joy. This memory has sustained me, nurtured me and helped me face times of trial and upheaval. It has helped me commit to pursuing my own self-development and self-realisation, the path can be difficult at times but what this experience gave me was an anchor to inner peace and contentment.

My commitment and respect for the undeniable benefits of Bodhisoul Breathwork^® made me pursue more knowledge and experience with this technology and I trained with Christina to become a Bodhisoul Breathwork^®  Practitioner, which I completed in 1996. Since that time I have researched and completed other trainings which have added other dimensions to my work I have also run many breathwork groups, workshops and retreats. Out of all this work  Breath₄Life™ Breath Work was born it is an amazing, unique and dynamic therapy. It is the quickest way to bliss consciousness that I know and an extremely effective, safe and gentle way to clear old suppressed emotions, traumas, patterns and self-sabotaging behaviour. The other benefits that it has is it helps us to be more present in our lives so that we can enjoy the moment rather than living in the past or future. It helps us truly to connect with others on all levels of being and bring us such love, joy, happiness and abundance in all forms. If someone asked me what has been the most effective tool that I have used to help myself in this Life, Breath Work would be the answer.